Wonderment

One of the best things about the fall is that the nights are getting just a little longer.  You may not know this, but in Alberta in the summer the sun stays up late.  So it’s nice to get the opportunity to enjoy some stargazing when summer gives way to autumn.

Last night I got to do a little moon gazing.  I brewed myself a cup of apple cider, bundled up, and stood outside on my driveway just soaking up the peace and quiet.

It’s such a simple thing, and yet I rarely take the time.  Why?  Perhaps my mental camera is too focused on all the different things I’m working on – my next book, getting my course launched, the minutiae of everyday life that can often become overblown into big mountains of drama…  Sometimes my sense of wonderment sits up high on the back of the shelf, gathering dust. 

Here’s the thing: that happens to be a choice I made, albeit unconsciously.  At some point even though I still wanted to take those moments to be awed, I began to tell myself it was too big a production.  After all, I had to wait for it to get properly dark, leave the dogs in so I could take my cider out, get dressed up warm, make sure there weren’t any extra house lights getting in the way… you can see where things could get a little lost. 

Sometimes the stories we’re telling ourselves get in the way of the moment.  

Now that I’m aware of this tricky little habit o’ mine, I’m sure as shootin’ not going to let a crummy story about having to be staid, responsible, or wake up early ever get in the way of a little stargazing ever again.  There was this moment when a plane flew over on its way to somewhere, and it hit me that I was being treated to a side-by-side view of the miracles of nature and the miracles of man!  It blew me away and made me feel very fortunate to live in such an amazing world.  Some things feed the soul, and for me, feeling that sense of wonder, being awed by something so much bigger than myself, is soul food.  After years of being uber on top of the “responsible adulting,” I am ready for a really good feed. 

How about you?

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